A Mother & Daugher

My mom & I do not always see eye to eye. Then again, I believe that not seeing eye to eye is essential in the growth of a strong mother/daughter relationship & that sometimes it may make the bond stronger. My own relationship with my mother for example is constantly tested by the decisions we make, the words we use & the manner in which we choose to deal with situations. Yet somehow, my mom & I always seem to make it through. I was 19 when I had Isabelle. My mom was my rock & the ONLY reason that I got through that first week without feeling like I was on another planet. She stayed with me through every contraction, every push & eventually every first that I would experience as a first time mother myself. The weekend of my 21st birthday my life changed drastically & although I am sure my mom thought it better for me to be home with Isabelle every night, she graciously allowed me to do what any normal 21 year old wants to do & did not make me feel guilty for it. (at least not very often ;). She may not know this, but she saved me. I was able to go out every other weekend, be young and crazy & make bad decisions with my girlfriends & all the while, she was at home with Bella not wanting me to miss out on my youth. Five years later I had Nate. Once again not so wise choices landed me in a situation where I found myself needing my mom more than ever & what does she do? She tells my dad they are selling their big, beautiful, brand new house in Tracy to move back closer to her grand babies & her children so that she can help her daughter one more time. My children are now 11 & 6 and not a day goes by that she does not offer to do something for them, for me, or for my newest little one 7 month old Maddison. I will admit she can be overbearing from time to time, but then again what mother isn't? I know that she means well & although I would like to think that my children are who they are because of me I know that large parts of their personality come from my own mother who's strong influence shines through more often than not. And although this makes it hard for me to always see eye to eye with my own daughter, I know that she will be a better person from having both of us in her life rather than just me. I may not say it often enough, but I think she knows how much she means to me. I think she knows the days I need her to call me up & ask me if I want her to take Nate to baseball practice. If I want her to bring the kids dinner, or if I want her to take me shopping... even if I am 30 years old. And if she doesn't already know this, I hope that now she does... You are very much appreciated mom... Today, tomorrow and always.